Discipline and Procrastination

That's right, discipline and procrastination. They are the little angel/devil sitting upon my shoulders and like in all the cartoons, the little devil is a head of the game. Of course the angel usually wins in the end, unless it a Bugs Bunny cartoon (I think the devil might have won a few times in those) ... but we're not there yet, are we.

Procrastination. PROCRASTINATION. P R O C R A S T I NA T I O N.

Evil. EVIL. E V I L.

Who's to blame? Me of course. Nobody else. Nada. Zilch. Zero.

I have finished my manuscript of Truthseekers (and the crowd goes wild), but I haven't done anything since then. Oh yes, I've "outlined" a new story idea... even found a name for it, big deal.

I even worked on a story game with my Wednesday night class, but have done nothing with that either.

I could say my writing suffers whenever my life is going easy-peasy, but my life hasn't been that easy-peasy, I've just found other not-so-thought-provoking ways to deal with. Anybody hear of Farmville? Cafe World? Cityville? Oh yes, those delightfully time-sucking games of Facebook. Those are only the three I've allowed myself to start. Can you imagine the danger I'd be in if I tried any others? I shiver at the thought. I would never see my family again. I wouldn't know what day it is. I wouldn't remember the last time I took a shower. You get the picture.

I shouldn't be so hard on these games or spending time networking with friends, even if it is frivolous for the most part, because we need to escape sometimes, no matter how frivolous it may seem. But I am chiding myself for using these games as an excuse not to write. That's just down right irritating and once again, no one to blame but myself.

Discipline is there somewhere, I just have it buried under piles and piles of yarn (knitting & crocheting), plarn (plastic bags cut into strips for knitting and crocheting), computer games and TV shows.

I have made a promise to start tonight... but as my Pastor recently said, we always say we're going to do something later, or tomorrow, or next week, but what we need to say is I'm going to start RIGHT NOW! It is a difficult concept to grasp when you've been surrounded by the put-off-today-what-you-can-do-tomorrow mentality. Or better yet the, let's-not-and-say-we-did concept.

So, here I am on lunch break (clocked out I might add) working on a blog I haven't seen since September! For once in my life (or at least in the recent past) I'm doing something RIGHT NOW!

Whew, that was exhausting... I think I'll come back later...